My relation with English

 

I consider my relationship with English quite unusual, I understand it quite well, because since I was a child I have been interested in languages. However, I focused this interest on English because it is the "universal language" and in this way I began to listen to music, watch movies and interviews, read novels and nerd books and even change my phone to English. Ironically I feel that speak English it is not going very well for me, in my head or when I am alone it sounds excellent, like a native, but when I speak it in public I die lol